Ed Paradise

Am i too greedy....

2008-06-18T23:52:00.003+08:00

To be with me, i need a understanding, and a mature minded. that's all .! is that really greedy.? I know that sometimes people can't control their feeling on something happen. But if i did something maybe you all think is wrong for a reason, some people may think is an excuses. FIne, then is ok. I hope my closest people to be understand...and finally i had decided not to hide anymore.. If the world knew...then let it be..I'm still in your side...AM i going to run away from this.? I WONT.!!

Maybe you were right...time.. that's wat we all need...I hope u could take enuff time...to get this clear...I concern you, not because i had made a mistake. i concern you because i care. i called you, not because i wan to beg for your forgiveness, i called you because i don't want you to be alone.

For the mistake i had made, i know it cannot be forgive, but i really hope for a understanding... But still "I am Sorry..."

For the Dearest...Grace..!

End my holiday soon....

2008-06-11T17:55:00.001+08:00

Haiz...This holiday...the same holiday...Jus like that...finish jor...SIENZ..jus go out watch movie, go to visit my birth place(Kelantan).That's all.! Nothing else.

Oh yeah..i still got 1 more thing to do..i bought a new game named TIME SHIFT. But i had finished it...lol...The game was quite nice.i can stop, slow and reverse the time. Sounds excited huh.!?

Abd also, my result had come out, feeling sad because of that TECHNICAL COMMUNICATION. Made my CGPA drop again...haiz...I so damn hard to pull till 3 then falling back again...arghh...but my mom said :"suan la, mom see u can pass all then good lo.." haha...see..! where the hell in this world got mother so good..!? that she is MY MOM..!! lolx.

Well...still got 3 more days, i need to get back to cyber le lo..feel excited and sien...hahaha...Ok then hope to see my housemate and my University' matesoon..haha!!

Wow..! it's been a long while...

2008-05-08T18:05:00.002+08:00

Hi guys, Seems to be a long long while i didn't update my blog. Almost get suspended already...Lolx.

Well, I'm now in the study week to get in to my Final exam for my second years,last trimester. Hope i could study well. That is most people hope.! The problem, I don't the mood for study now. Oh my god.! I could just say:" 死咯..!!not yet finish study..!" After that asking my housemate for "DOTA", Or going to play chess with Mr. Zhou(sleep).That's funny huh.!?

But i really my holiday could reach soon.Then I can go out enjoy...! yeahoo..! It will be fun by just think of that. Haiz...

Hmm...nothing much to talk about now..Suddenly wanted to write something in my blog to update it only..blek..! Anyway, see you guys soon..! haha..! Pray for me...lolx...

The one week break....

2008-03-23T16:02:00.003+08:00

Well, it's a very good, excited news for me that we would have one week break for our midterm. In this entire week, u know what? I've done nothing except Movie-ing, Dota-ing, eating and sleeping? Anyway, i feel warm is i had a few frens accompany me for my boredness week...

For this week, i had finish an anime called "BECK". It's quite a nice anime. Watching it, making me feel more interest in Guitar....I hope i could play it well. But it's a hard thing. Although it's a intrument that easiest to learn.Anyway, I still want to learn it well..!! Gambateh..!

After this week,i have to get back to my study life. it's bored though. Still hav 2 years to go for my graduate if it's smooth without failing any subject. My midterm test still not yet finish. after my test still have my final which is coming soon too.

And today i woke up,something happen.....it happen so sudden...i felt like falling down from somewhere high in the sky, and i didn't know how i fell....but i cant see the ground, i don't know when i could see it.... I hope i could see the ground soon....

Back to the normal life...

2008-03-04T01:49:00.002+08:00

Walao...After Chinese New Year..My life is coming back..the boring life...although sometime can find some people out. But the the time is passing too fast man.!LOLx.!

Every weekend, the oni few things can do are playing basketball and find some fren go out...every week repeat the same things. One word "SIEN LO..!!" t(-.-t)

Well, now it's about to start my midterm test.. need to get into my study mood already...Hope my midterm break come as soon as possible...lol.

Well, time to say good night...! Bye bye see you guys around.!

Come back from Chinese New Year.!!

2008-02-12T17:31:00.000+08:00

Well, Long time didn't update my blog. Kind da busy ler... Busy for boredness..!! Oh my God.. Anyway, wish all of my visitors for a Happy Chinese New Year.!! May all your dream come true wherever, whenever u wished.!!

This Year of CNY actually quite happy because go out and still can some of my friends.^^ But....Too Dam short for me la wei.!! Just holiday for stupid 4 days only.My snack and drink still haven't finish then need to came back for my study. What ta hell...

But still, hope this weekend can still go out have some fun. ^^ I wish i can go out without any hinder... God bless me...!!haha..!!

So, this is some of my photo that i took when going out to visit to my relative...

Leng Zhai huh..!?

Well, this is my Fater and Monther... Like a King and a Queen rite.?? ^^

Our three sister and brothers...!! FIR..!!

Is my sister pretty..!? Sure it is rite..!?? :P

Wow...who is it.!?? so yeng.?? My mom..?? I cant believe it..!! Oh my God..!

Back to cyber...

2008-01-27T16:54:00.000+08:00

Today is the day... back to cyber, to begin my gamma year 3rd trimester. But the problem is MY SICK HAVENT RECOVER YET..!! So be coming back to cyber i went to see doctor 1st..in case i really still cannot recover then i got medicine, and the MC leave.. :P Well..now i just finish cleaning my room and now going to take a nap, due to my medicine effect... Well..c ya...!!

The Sickness...

2008-01-25T17:20:00.000+08:00

well, i had a very "good" time for this thaippusam's holiday. I get sick...!! Damn it.!!! Couse me 3 days staying at home like a siput...sien..and suffer...still thinking can go out playing my favourite game, basketball .... all gone.!! haih...finally today...getting better. Saturday maybe can go having something great for my brother birthday...hope so....!! haha..!
Well...Thanks to my mom..!! Keep taking care of me...so touching..haha..!! And my fren grace...accompany me when i cant sleep....thanks ya.!!
Haha..!! Ok lo..!! I want Yam Cha lo..My mom make a cup of tea for me...!! Bye bye..!!

Thaipusam

2008-01-23T04:27:00.000+08:00

Wow...!! It's a great festival today.!!But i'm not going to celebrate it... :P
It's good to have my brother and sister also having holiday for this festival.So thinking will there be anyplace are we going.?? B'cause my holiday too dam bored already. what to do? waiting for the open school? All the night just finding the same person go "yam cha". I dun get bored my fren also felt lame ler...So hoping we will having a good time tomorrow. God bless me....!!

Enjoy this clip, I had found her concert for this song although it's not live.

Always...

2008-01-21T01:46:00.000+08:00

Well, just now i have been listen to the songs of BOA's Album. I found out a song name 'Always' quite touching even i did not know what is the lyrics.Then i try search in the net to find the translation of the lyrics. The lyrics was great.!! So , i would like to share to my visitor. ^^

Always- korean version(romaji)

Chah ga geu rae nae ga nuh reul eejuh bol gae
No ryuk hae bol gae
Uhn jae na jo yong ha dun uhn jae na mal ee ups dun
Nuh neun nae gae moh jin mal do moht ha jjahn ni

Mi ahn ha dan yong suh ha lan ma leun da shi
Ha ji neun ah neul gae
Uh dduhn mal eul hae do uh dduhn guh seul hae do nuh neun da shi
Dohl ah ohl soo ga ups jjahn ni

Ee jae nae gae duh neun nae gae
Jo geum ei hee mahng do ups gaet ji mahn
Mal haet jja nah da ahl jjah nah
Sarang hae soh yong ups gaet ji mahn sarang hae

Ee jae ni ga juh moo neul yuhl go na gan hoo aehn moht bo gae dwel ha
Dae nae ga muhn juh il uh sul gae
Duh ee sahng ho ro nam gyuh ji neun gun shi uh
Gyun dil soo ga up suh

Ee jae nae gae duh neun nae gae
Jo geum ei hee mahng do ups gaet ji mahn
Mal hat jja nah da ahl jjah nah
Sarang hae soh yong ups gaet ji mahn

Da shi hahn buhn dan hahn buhn mahn
Dan haroo mahn ee myun gwaen cha neun dae
Moht da hahn mal moht hahn sarang
Da jool soo ee seul guhs kat eun dae sarang hae

Ga kkeum ah joo ga kkeum shi
Nae ga dduh o reul ddae myun
Shwip gae nal cha jeul soo ees gae
Yuh ki ee seul gae

Go ma wuh suh ni ga ee suh
Nuh moo do haeng bok haet suht suh mi chi do rohk
Sarang haet suh sarang haet suh
Geu rae suh duh ah peu gaet ji mahn ann yong

Always-english version
Goodbye, I will try to forget you.
I will try.
Always quiet, Never had anything to say
You..
You can't even say something that will break my heart

I will not say forgive me or I am sorry.
Whatever I do, Whatever I say, You won't come back
to me either way.

There isn't even little hope.
I already told you, You already know.
I love you, Although it is useless, I love you

Now, after you opened the door and left
I won't be able to see you anymore
I will stand up first
I don't want want to be left alone anymore.
I can't stand it

There isn't even little hope.
I already told you, You already know. I love you
Although it is useless
Once, just once
Even a day is ok
The words I couldn't say, the love we couldn't do
I think I will be able to give it to you
I love you

Occasionally, Very occasionally
If you remember me
I will stay here so you can find me easily

I am thankful you are here
I was happy, so happy I was crazy
I loved you, I loved you
So, even though I will be in greater pain..
Goodbye

What can i say...!?

2008-01-18T04:18:00.000+08:00

Well...Am i holidaying..? it should be.! LOLz, feeling of boredness, loneliness, then don't know how, my sadness come along. It's should be happy for my holiday. But all my fren are examing..fed up..! Well today is friday already, hoping my enjoyable time(playing basketball) can smoothly be done by no any other obstract my precious activity. i can only play few times a week.

Most of the time at home just sleep, eat, chat and watch. keep repeat the same procedure.haih...what can i say...!? Anyway some of my friends told me the result of our final gonna out soon... Hope there is a surprise for me...by not making me down.

Time to bed, later morning i'm suppose to help my father doing job. hehe, well then, Good night..!!

Slogan for now~~" To Overcome the sadness..!!" yeah..!! babe..!!

I'm Back....

2008-01-12T11:41:00.000+08:00

Hi guys, to all of my visitors... I have an important announcement that i really need to tell u all..!! that is... "I'm back..!!" Haha..feeling -.-" It's been long i didn't update my blog, sorry guys..i'd been so busy for my exam and my vacation, But until now i only can having holiday silently. But i got a quite fun and enjoyable trip with some of my friends, it was an unforgetable memory. Although it was fun but once again i really need to stay home as i already "bottom up" my wallet. Nothing left but all the recipts. I can be a good boy, in order to filling up my hunger. Haha.!

Last night was my "brother's" birthday. We went to the New Way of 1U sing K. We having alot of food there as it had a buffet for 1 hour. So we take as much as we can filling up the room with the food. At last, we couldn't finish it.Not because the food too much, it's because the food SUX..!! Not only for matter of this, the waiter coming in for billing, we got stunned by the stupid bill.! RM640.00 What ta Hell...!! I never seem so expensive as i live until now.! RM58.80 for each people. those fruits and nuts seems like imported from outer space, so damn expensive. it cost RM123.00 for those don't know what kind of fruits & nuts. SWEAT..!! Guys, when you all
wanna to go New Way sing K, really need to be careful get fool by them..!! but since our brother birthday, what can we do...Haha..!!

Ok lo.!! I wanna to get back to my holiday, visit me again when i've updated again me blog..see you when i updated..!!

Miserable weeks......

2007-12-28T22:28:00.000+08:00

What a miserable Week..!! All these day just playing, watching, Doing bored things.
Even In the X'mas Eve, at least go some of my fren(guy only) celebrate.We went to 1U to watch Movie(National Treassure2:Book Of Secret), by that time i saw alot of people jamming to go to The Curve celebrating X'mas eve by watching the Show : Flower in the sky(Fire Works). Luckly the movie was long enough.^O^ if not, the rest of the time, cant imagine how are we gonna do to make the time pass. Sweat ah..!!! Seeing all people in the couple for their X'mas celebration. sigh... On the X'mas that day more horrible... Alone in the room, playing the guitar, exercising the song(爱我别走).

The meaningful thing i had done is, helping my parent doing the housework for welcoming the year of 2008.Cant wait for hoping going back to cyber, at least got PC to play,surfing,chatting,drama-ing...(i cant live without you, my PC).

1 good news that made me quite happy and 放心 is....tada... My uncle(PTPTN) had bank in money to me...Yahoo..!!! Hoping my holiday will be happy..!! haha.!! For now my, i need to tie on my study... Hoping this trimester can pull up my CGPA in order to get back to my target(3.0)..-.-" Gambateh..My dear Ed..You must do it..!!

Well see you all again..!! Need to get back for my study 1st..later wanna go yam cha..!! Ciaoz...!!

It's not important anymore....

2007-12-19T04:26:00.000+08:00

For now, I'm feeling tired,hot temper, and abit moody for some reason.Is it because of the basketball game just now or.... other things had made me like this.

Since the problem from some of my good friends, we haven't make up our mind to planning how are we going to celebrate our X'mas eve. So i'm now having decision to make is whether follow my parent to having a japanese buffet or follow my gay partner(my roommate) to go some other place to have a celebration, or going out with my Brothers(secondary best friends). But all the decision i have to make in under 1 condition...I'm so damn POOR already...!! No more money left to spend...T_T because of the TUITION FEES of MMU(money minded university).Moreover, my Uncle(PTPTN) haven't pay me money to spend...

It's been long ....i haven't go back to my home,my parent seems miss me alot...sometimes my father called me sometimes my mother do...So i make up mind to going back home in this weekend, to accompany my parent.

I think i have to stop here....so dam tired already...Lazy to write..^^
Well then...Good night Ed..!!
Dreams make people more tired,so hopefully dun dream.
But sleep tight...!!

没有她的日子.....

2007-12-15T04:24:00.000+08:00

有多久....已经不知道了....最近很忙，考试，assignment，presentation，lab...通通都得急着交。等下早上，又要上课了..!!但我的时间已经颠倒了....有预感，病毒就要来侵占我了！！！

不知道她怎样了呢？昨天临晨，她已搭飞机到香港去旅游了。真替她高兴，难得有这几回去玩，散散心。而我就这能有这些的"忙"来陪伴我!!一天又一天的，不知道这份思念是否会渐渐地.....淡...

还是去睡一觉吧!明天还得上课呢！！！晚安了! Edwin.!

没有Pypy的第9天.....

2007-12-09T19:54:00.000+08:00

今天，我们全家人(Cyberia Housemate) 一同去 KLCC 的 PC Fair.遇到了很多朋友，就连以前吉兰丹的同学，都有遇到，真是有缘... :p 我们在那里呆了整整五个小时，才回到Cyber.很高兴地，我买了一个新的滑鼠。^^ 好累哦！！一回到家，洗完澡，就上床睡了，到了半夜才醒。然后又去跟朋友去打篮球...哈哈！！真是血气方刚.

男人歌，唱给谁来听；
下一首，有没有你心情，
你的背包，让我走得好缓慢。
男人歌，原来，唱的都是不敢说的心情。

没有Pypy 第7天.....

2007-12-07T02:57:00.000+08:00

今天是EET2026 的midterm考试。幸好有一位"资深高"的朋友教我。但还是很紧张，不会做：怎么不能办呢？不过最终考完了，还是回去"打机"。哈哈。。！！今天的天气.....啊！！！真舒服，从早上。开始下雨直到晚上....还是下着雨....是一个非常适合"冬眠"的时候.....!!

难道早已注定，不能真正拥有你；
难道我真心付出一切，这为了是为了承受孤单和寂寞
我知道，你不敢对我表白，使不要按到我的伤怀。
虽然你没有说要离开我,我已经看到，你不再属于我....

没有Pypy 的第四天.....

2007-12-03T19:25:00.000+08:00

今天，已离Midterm 考试越来越近了，也是时候开始温习功课了。读书我的最恨。t(-.-t)..！！但觉得讲师所教的课，已忘了。咳.....很闷啊！！！

这婚礼怎么那么悲伤，我流着泪双手使劲鼓掌；
我听到爱情钟声在响，一杯又一杯喝醉了。

没有 Pypy 的第三天....

2007-12-03T02:45:00.000+08:00

在周末的两天，几乎没睡多久，睡的时间只在下午。过的不只难过，而倒霉，打篮球还扭到了脚。咳.....今天是第三天，心情虽有点平服，但偶尔还是会想起以往的开心事。"是这样的啦...!!" 我对我自己说。就让时间冲淡吧.!一年半的时间，就这样过了。好快，好快！但现在的时间，却感觉，很慢，很慢！

说出的决定....

2007-12-01T05:02:00.000+08:00

终于，我说出了我的决定，这是我目前为止最难说出的决定。第一次感受那么痛苦的抉择，带一点罪恶，与伤痛地心离开了她。距离到底是一个问题吗...? 有了距离就有了空间；空间太大了，又容易产生误会。要如何才能拥有一样的目标，怎么样的心态，来面对这远距离的关系？是要放纵，严管来维护这关系？很多很多的问题，都需要经过才能领悟，为何需要这样呢？今天的问题实在太多了..!!! 问题多了，又觉得厌烦。这就叫做人生吗？？考验？还是哲学？
我的舍不得，就只有你的笑脸，温柔，声音，与你共度的时光，一个非常棒的阶段。这阶段的结束，也代表着另一个阶段的开始。真心祈求，你会要好的下一个阶段。真的谢谢你。。！！

星情

2007-11-29T19:43:00.000+08:00

今天的夜晚，非常冷，也非常安静。我弹着吉他，唱着星情，却弹着雨天；忐忑的心，不知该如何表白。

不要害怕...!!

2007-11-28T17:00:00.000+08:00

做任何事情，想好了，考虑好了，不要害怕，放胆去做。。！想给自己的一份鼓励。。！

Let's get it started...!!

2007-11-27T03:52:00.000+08:00

Today , what a day could i call..? Bored,sadness,annoying. Whatever it is... what a "wonderful" day.Dota for whole day long. Gammer gay...^^ what else i can do..?Contradiction.
The boredness had made me created a new blog for myself. swt... -.-" That's my day..!!